Hey, sorry for the long hiatus. The end of my time in Japan was pretty busy, and once I was back home I was kind of too sad/lazy to write anything. But now I’m finally moved in to my new TH (Terrace House, where the seniors at Vassar College live) with four of my friends, and I’m ready to write about it. This will likely be my last post on this blog, since I started it for the purpose of recording my time in Japan, and now that I’m back, it doesn’t really serve much purpose anymore.
Being back is definitely weird. I mean, it wasn’t as bad as everyone warned me, no reverse culture shock or anything. Everything’s pretty much the way I left it. My hometown hasn’t changed that much. The people haven’t changed that much. It’s really just me who’s changed, hopefully for the better. I think I’ve become much more independent and sure of myself. And I don’t really take as much shit from people as I used to. I think that’s because everyone I met in Japan was so nice, and I guess I wasn’t all that used to that in America. As much I love my friends here, some of them can be real assholes, and I often find myself questioning why I’m even friends with them in the first place.
Another thing is that it’s just so much more boring being home than being in Japan. Specifically, Tokyo. I’m sure it would be boring if I had gone to the countryside of Japan, but in Tokyo there’s never a lack of things to do. And even if most of the time I was just out drinking with friends, it was always fun. Being part of a club where everyone is so friendly and just want to have a great time was amazing. You don’t really get that in American colleges.
I am glad I got to see my family. They’ve changed too, and it was kind of weird to see that. You kind of expect your family to always be the same, but if you don’t see them for a year they’ll be a lot different. And not always in ways that you like.
I’m happy to be in a house with my friends at Vassar, rather than at a dorm. It’s nice having the freedom to cook and eat what you want, instead of paying $13 to eat crappy cafeteria food. I’m definitely going to have to learn how to cook though.
I miss my friends from Japan, but I’ll see them again soon enough. I’m trying to convince Jon, Vageesha, and Shiori (she’s studying abroad in Indiana) to come visit me in NY. And I’ll be back in Japan eventually, either for work or on a fellowship or something. I went to a meeting about fellowship opportunities, and it kind of made me want to go to Japan for a year and write a novel or something. It wouldn’t be the same as it was last year, but it would be nice.
I’m so busy now, with four hard classes, a senior project, work, and just day-to-day living. I don’t really have time anymore for video games or writing or anything, which kind of sucks. But it’ll be good, too. At the end of the year I can be proud of all that I’ve done (hopefully). And perhaps all that work will lead to landing my dream job as a video game designer. We’ll see.
So yeah. This may be the end of this blog, unless I do end up getting a fellowship and spending another year in Japan, in which case I might start up again. But if not, thank you for following my posts and hearing what I have to say. It’s been a roller coaster of a year, but it’s also been one of the best years of my life so far, and I can’t wait to see what else is in store. I won’t say sayonara, because that means goodbye forever; instead I’ll just say matane (see you again)!